Lifestyle, New Year

Fresh Starts

When the clock strikes midnight on New Years Eve I feel like Cinderella – running into a new year, leaving shoes behind, feeling like everything is the same but that nothing is really the same (love me some mixed emotions πŸ˜‰ ) My car doesn’t turn into a pumpkin on the way home and my dress doesn’t reveal itself as tattered and torn – in fact my life looks pretty much exactly the same moments into the new year – but at the same time it feels like everything is different. The magic of the clock and the new time stamp sets something afire in my soul – Fresh Starts. 

To be honest with you it gives me the fluttery butterflies mixed with sheer terror – just like falling in love (and I imagine what Cinderella felt as she fled the ball.) The new year can hold so much hope – dreams, goals, adventures, resolutions, and new beginnings. But it also carries a terrifying pressure – “better get it right this time”  with a lot of “go, go, go!” and “achieve, achieve, achieve!”

This is one of the first years since blogging that I dint make resolutions (2011, 2012) or pick a word (2013, 2014) or verse for the year (2015.) I just kinda ran into it like Cinderella with hope for the future but also a little confusion because life is messy and beautiful and busy.

I have dreams and plans for this space that I have not yet sat down to iron out. I have goals with work and have had conversations about budgets, giving, health insurance, and other grown up responsibilities. I’ve scribbled down notes on scrap paper and let myself chose community over planning. I’ve picked little changes over massive planning sessions and I’ve held vision meetings in the car as we drive around town.

The balance of setting goals (big heavy goals for life and this blog) colliding with spending time with friends and family, sleeping, and other wise not working all the time is one I have yet to figure out. I do know one thing – that pressure to have my life figured out before the clock strikes 12 is a burden I don’t need to bear.

Because new plans and fresh starts don’t need to come with the first day of the year or the 12th strike of the clock. Sometimes fresh starts feel the same – mixed with a lot of the old and a little bit of new. Sometimes the goals take days to form and the changes take weeks to put into place. This year I am okay with a slower start – heck I need it!

When the holidays settle down and the time to sit down to goal plan opens up, I will soak it in and dream away. Until then I’ll sleep in, spend time with family, and give myself a little grace to start a new year without a bang.

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9 years ago

I’m always excited to see what new things you’ll dream up for this space next, Beth! (And I’ve never picked a word/verse so I’m running into 2016 in simple faith, too! Haha)

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Reply to  Julie Hood
9 years ago

Thank you so much Julie! And yeah for simple faith – I think we all need those years and moments!

9 years ago

Beth, this is so beautifully written! I typically don’t pick resolutions because I don’t like the feeling of being tied down by a few goals (that, let’s be realistic, don’t always happen!). I do choose a word, but it’s typically a feeling that I want to have throughout the year. What’s really going to stick with me, though, is what you said about the New Year– “that pressure to have my life figured out before the clock strikes 12 is a burden I don’t need to bear.”

Yes, yes, and yes. πŸ™‚

Happy New Year!

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Reply to  Kiki
9 years ago

Love you Kiki! And yes, I feel the same way about goals and plans. I’ve tried to be intentional yet Trust the Lord. This year already looks a bit different but it is what my heart needs – simple faith.

9 years ago

Happy new year dear one! I have never done New Years resolutions actually. I don’t really know why. I tend to set little goals all through the year I guess!

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Reply to  Rachel
9 years ago

Thanks so much Rachel! And yes, little goals over time is a wonderful plan!

9 years ago

This is beautiful! I struggle with the balance of running after my dreams and goals and still choosing community and people over productivity and efficiency. It’s a hard one, but I’m right with you – maybe we don’t have to have it all figured out and can just keep joyfully and expectantly moving forward! Beautiful post!

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Reply to  Lauren English
9 years ago

Yes! It is funny how those can collide. This year I am starting with simple faith and it is a good rest for my heart!