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September 20, 2013
Faith

Heart Talk

this week i have noticed a lot of ugly in my heart (great start to a blog post elizabeth – yeah, i know). but that is the truth. i have noticed a heart never satisfied because it is always comparing to everyone around me. i have noticed a heart that doubts my purpose, my identity, my value. i have encountered a heart trying so hard to be perfect yet falling short every time.
the worst part is my heart has been becoming like this overtime. i have ignored it – lived apathetically. done the day-to-day and pushed it to the side. covered up the sin by saying things like “it is just me trying to be my best” and listen to the lies whispered in my ears.
i have found myself in a place where life is good. it just is. i like my job. i like my friends. i like my husband. sure things are bad sometimes and sometimes they are great but mostly everything is just good and that made me apathetic. it made me lazy.
i didn’t need to pray about my marriage all the time because we were fine. i didn’t need to pray for a job because i had one. i did not need to pray and seek council over my relationships because i had no tifs with people. life was good. normal. easy.
so i skipped time in the Word & i stopped analyzing my heart. other things crept in – things like dissatisfaction and comparison. and oh, how i hate to admit that my heart looks like that.
so this is some heart talk. and maybe mostly accountability. it is too easy for this extroverted girl to never process her heart. i am a verbal processor so if i never talk about it, i never really think about it. but i have been talking about it this week and my eyes are opening to the darkness that i am sitting in (thanks to this post & some convicting conversations in small group).
i have no answers yet. and it is hard enough to admit that out loud, yet alone blog about it. i wish i had a three step process on getting your heart out of a rut. or ten ways to be glad you are you. but right now i am just broken. and messy. and aware of my sin nature.
i need Jesus. always. even when life is “good”
and i am so weary from trying to be perfect. so weary from trying to find my value. so weary from feeling like i never measure up. so weary from feeling like i have nothing to offer.
“come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. for My yoke is easy and My burden is light” – Jesus (matthew 11:28-30)
holding onto this promise. thankful for a God of grace. of new beginnings. of hope. of life….

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  1. Elizabeth Mayberry says

    September 22, 2013 at 1:34 am

    Robyn! I love that quote! Thanks for sharing!!! PS: I also got your card in the mail (ahhhhhh!) and you will be getting one back shortly!!!

    XOX

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  2. Elizabeth Mayberry says

    September 22, 2013 at 1:36 am

    Kylie,
    Thank you so much for your sweet words. It is funny how we always think we are walking alone and in shame we try to hide our hearts. I am glad it could be encouraging to you. this was encouraging to me. and THAT is the body of Christ in action!

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  3. Elizabeth Mayberry says

    September 22, 2013 at 1:36 am

    🙂 sweet sister. amen.

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  4. Elizabeth Mayberry says

    September 22, 2013 at 1:37 am

    thanks for praying for me! what a way this community and body of Christ can come together to serve and encourage each other! love you!

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  5. Chelsea @ Lost in Travels says

    September 23, 2013 at 5:52 am

    this is so true. i feel that in times of complete content is when i find discontent brewing. i have to be so careful to still keep in the word and prayer in times like this because it's when i need it the most!

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  6. Robyn Black says

    September 23, 2013 at 1:08 pm

    ahhh! yay!!! i was wondering when it would arrive! 🙂

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  7. Jayme McClure says

    September 23, 2013 at 2:52 pm

    Thank you for sharing and for your honesty. I've been in a funk lately when I should be counting all the blessings that I do have. I've strayed and feelings of discontentment and not measuring up on all accounts is strong. I'm tired and definitely need to find my way back.

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  8. Kristyn @ Milk + Crown says

    September 23, 2013 at 10:53 pm

    girl, i am so with you. "I need Jesus. Even when life is good." SO TRUE! Sometimes I forget to seek Him out when I'm not struggling, and then I always fail to pour out thankfulness and kindness. I become wrapped up in comparison, jealousy, feelings of unworthiness, but God promises to be there for us through it all. So amazing 🙂 Will definitely be thinking of you! I'm feeling so similar right now.

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  9. Anne Taylor says

    September 23, 2013 at 11:49 pm

    i think that it is just so powerful that you are writing about it. that, in itself, shows that you are up and on your way out of apathy. it's so hard to show up, but so rewarding.

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  10. Julie says

    September 29, 2013 at 11:57 am

    Holding onto that promise too! I'm actually an introvert, so I'm ALWAYS thinking about things. And I've been examining the sin in my heart a whole lot lately. It's not easy to admit we've fallen, that we're sinful, but that's when we realize most that we need to set aside pride and go to the foot of the cross. We need Jesus all. the. time. Thanks for spreading some truth, girl!

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