i’ll be honest with you, i had another post scheduled for today. some of you know that i schedule ahead so that i can work full time, have a life (& a husband), and blog. but there is wiggle room in that because i think everything needs a little wiggle room (that coming from a girl who is still working at not freaking out with plan changes or expectations..!) so here is my wiggle room. a post about “those things” that i want to do, but currently am not, that i should be doing.
each day it is different. some days it is as simple as the laundry (i really should unpack and do the laundry). and some days it seems impossible (like write a book or have a full time job as a blogger). it can be relational (pray with my husband consistently), emotional (spend time being refreshed in the Lord’s presence), physical (work out), practical (get things done at work) – what ever you have been wanting to do but have not. today it is this:
QUIET TIME IN THE MORNING
very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed – Mark 1:35
my mind can turn into a giant stress factory the moment i wake up. i was just telling bruce about this because i feel like i am learning so much about myself i never knew. all these fears are surfacing, passions are stirring, and responsibilities are demanding and i cannot focus. i am always thinking about my to-do list, wondering when i can fit everything in, trying for perfection, running full force… but i am not sure where i am going. oh, i try to live life on my own. control everything, “create my own happiness” and i only feel more lost.
the older i get, the more i resonate with Jesus’s warning to the disciples, “watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” (Matthew 26:41). i want and need and CRAVE time in the Word but that snooze button is so appealing every morning. my flesh is so weak and my spirit is so hungry.
one thing that holds me back is lack of direction. for some reason the Bible just sitting in front of me is intimidating. what should i read? what does the Lord want me to read? what if i read the wrong part and it is pointless? (?!?!) silly questions when you type them out – and i am TIRED of letting them get to me! i will read. i will trust. and i will drink coffee in His presence. i am also beyond excited because as the Lord has been stirring in my heart, my Naptime Diaries Lent journal has been making its way to my door.
“It’s a 40 day, undated journal with scripture prompts and room for writing on every single page There are four sections to the book – Hope, Follow, Live, & Bless and the scriptures are intentionally picked to help you grow closer to the Lord as you read different passages from all over the Bible.” hello, just what i needed!
Naptime Diaries Reflective Journal
i don’t know about you. i don’t know where your heart is. what your dreams are. what “those things” are in your life BUT i do know that we were not meant to do this walk alone. i’ll be doing the Naptime Diaries 40 day journal and i want to invite you to do it with me. this is not a blog thing. this is not a link up everyday and spill all your secrets thing. this is just a community thing for everyone who is craving that closeness and accountability. you can blog about it (i am sure i will!!) but you don’t have to. you can link up on twitter & instagram with #ntdlent but you don’t have to. you don’t even have to tell me you are doing it (but i suggest you find at least one person to tell to help keep you accountable)!
i am starting today. i am listening to my alarm because i know my life will never fall into place when i do it on my own. yes, i have so many dreams, plans, desires, and hopes but none of them mean anything without the Lord. so today “those things” are to seek Him, spend time with Him, and grow in prayer and i have resolved to do “those things”